I would like to share about my life and burden with you because I am led by God to write this to you. My father is a pastor and I have grown up from my childhood as a Christian and have been taught about the Lord from my early age in Sunday school and in the Church. Even when I was a child I had a great desire to please the Lord, and live for Him. But as I grew up I thought about living a good life and to help the church monetarily because it taught me all the good things in my life. As I grew older to be a young teen age boy, the worldly desires and passions began to increase in me and I became bounded to various lustful habits. After I finished my schooling, I joined a polytechnic and finished my diploma and started studying Electrical Engineering degree. By the time I finished it, I wanted to pursue my career in software because of its boom in South India during the years 1998-2001.
As I was about to finish my Engineering, my body began to tremble and I got very weak and feeble. I got so weak that I was not even able to hold a tumbler in my hand with out tremor. As I was a fitness freak during my college days and represented my college for body building competition, I thought all these will go away. Things grew worse that I was hardly able to write my final semester exams without shivering, that the teacher who supervised the exam asked me about it. Any way I always managed through it because I was always self-confident during those days. But I got failed in one paper of my final exams due to which I missed to finish my degree in the stipulated time and I got second class. This was a great blow to me who planned for a successful career and gaining material wealth. Then the very next semester I studied and passed that paper and went on to join a software training institute to pursue my career and to travel abroad. But while I was studying and working in that place, my health got worse to the point ‘I told the company manager that I could no longer continue with my studies and work in the future’.
I returned back home in Erode which is a town that is 400 kilometers away from Chennai the capital of the state of Tamilnadu in south India. This was during the year 2001 end. When I came back home, I felt as though I had no future for me. As I was brought up in an evangelical church, so we had special revival meetings at that time of the year. So in my weakness I worked for the meeting and at the end of it, as a pastor’s son I had the privilege of meeting the man of God to pray for me. I told him that I felt that I have already wasted twenty years of my life in vain and he prayed for me.
The next day while I got up from my sleep in the morning all my muscles in my body got stiffened and I limped my way to even do my daily chores. Suddenly in that early morning, the first time in my life I felt that I was not in control of my life and I need to depend on others for my survival. While I was lying hopelessly in my bed, God quickened a word in my heart while I saw a calendar in the wall in which it was written, “Trust in the Lord at all times." (Psalm 62:8). This was the first time I felt God speak in my spirit so clearly. Then I received the strength to go through the affliction from God (Psalm 119:67, 71,75). All the people who thought that I would be earning a lot of money began to look mockingly at me. Then the doctors diagnosed that I had hyper thyroid three times more than the normal level and as a result potassium deficiency has occurred in my body. So I became bed ridden after visiting the hospitals for treatment. During that period of time I still wanted to pursue higher studies in my engineering and wanted to prepare for entrance exam. As usual I would take the Bible in the morning to read the smallest Psalm as a routine before starting to study for the entrance test, but I was not able to keep down the Bible.
During that time I began to understand the scriptures clearly. And I started reading and reading the whole Bible, it became like a honey in the midst of all my afflictions. It gave me comfort. It was a tough time for me and my family. My family members were not able to understand why I was reading the Bible all the time. I read the whole Bible in a matter of months and the desire to read and know it fully increased. Even I also was not able to fully understand what was happening in my life.
Then one day while I was sleeping in the afternoon, as I was slowly recovering from my weakness and was taking medicines, my mother and dad were praying in the next room as they usually do every Wednesday afternoon, I heard a voice behind me like the voice of the many waters as described in the Bible saying, “Do my work and I will bless you…..”. Suddenly I woke up and I was afraid. I did not tell it to anybody and that night while I thought about it, I became fearful and told my mother what had happened and then I felt a little bit relieved. My desire to know about God increased in leaps and bounds after that. I read voraciously all the spiritual books that my father had in his collections.
Then I asked my father a lot of questions about Bible and God. And he tried his best to answer me. I asked all my controversial but genuine questions about God. He even got upset because of some of the questions. From those days itself I felt a deep desire to commit my life fully to preach the Gospel to every one. But the irony was I have never been a person who could stand and speak before people, even before 2 or 3 people.
After that one day I went on to a small gathering to speak the word of God by invitation. As I stood up to speak I felt so fearful and inadequate to speak before the young people, suddenly in a moment of time God took away all my inhibitions that bound me, and I started to expound the word of God boldly and fluently. This in itself is the greatest miracle in my life.
As I started to pursue the call of God in my life, I was not sure whether I should be in full time ministry. Two or three years I was in dilemma about this matter. But the desire to teach and preach the word of God increased still more. After that I joined in a Bible college which God directed me to join. A lot of maturity and revelation came to me those days. God miraculously provided all the fees I needed to finish it. I found true joy and peace as I obeyed the voice of God. Praise the Lord!
Even from the day I heard God, the burden to reach out to the nation of India and China which are the most populated nations and to the nations with the word of God increased in me. And while I was doing my Bible college we went to a three day conference, during the meeting while the message was going on, the man of God suddenly stopped and prophesied that “God is going to use you in this nation as a leader, He has put in you the gift of pastoring and teaching, you will speak to people and they will be delivered and comforted….”. Then as I continued with my Bible College, the gift of God began to manifest in me. I became stronger and stronger in expounding the Word of God with authority. God became so real to me in a living way. Lot of revelations about the deep doctrines of the Bible began to be unveiled before me. Now I have no more doubt in the Word of God. Praise the Lord!
And God began to stir up in my heart and told me that I am called to be an apostle, still he witnesses it in my heart clearly. I visibly could see the difference and transformation that has taken place after that. God increased the desire for holiness in my life more and more. All the bondages have been broken completely by the power of God. The presence of the Holy Spirit has increased in leaps and bounds. I sometimes get baffled by the amount of revelation I receive from the word of God. God has put a strong desire in me to teach the word of God in all the churches and extend the kingdom of God through it.
God has shown me that as many as the stars are in the sky, so will be the number of souls that will be saved in this final coming harvest before his coming. I have always desired to live a life as an Engineer, in a solitary way, but God showed up in my life and has trained me to be a warrior, soldier and an apostle to His church. The last job I would have chosen in my life would be to teach, but God has called me to teach and have proved that in my weakness He is strong in me by His power that manifests. I believe that in our generation, we will turn the world upside down by His Spirit that works mightily in us. Grace and peace to you in Jesus name. God bless you.
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