Pestle and Mortar
- By Benita Joy
- Published 11/3/2008
Benita Joy is a Malayalee Christian and serves as the Chief Editor for South Asian Connection. She is a woman of faith, gifted in the area of leadership and administration, and has a heart for world missions. Her desire is to live a life that is pure and to serve God's purposes in her generation. Benita is pursuing a double major in English and Psychology at the University of British Columbia. She loves big cities, chai, the internet, roller coasters, international cuisines, music, and hanging out with friends. She is the youngest member of Team SAC, plays guitar with a baby pink pick (Yikes!), and she's not much taller than your average dwarf (don't tell her that).
there are days when dark clouds paralyze my mind and sanity escapes me. even remnants of the dream seem defiantly elusive. strength bled to weakness. passion emptied to numbness. forget brokenness; it feels as though God has taken pestle and mortar to my life, reducing everything to a fine powder that will fly away with the wind over time.
i simply trust. not because i am a saint. but because i am a wretched soul and my only other option is despair.
i know He is still at work because i am left with nothing except a love that grows with time and a flame that refuses to die, and i am incapable of sustaining either on my own.