1. i've never been much of a romantic, but i've come to appreciate movies like titanic, the notebook, dirty dancing, and aladdin. (if you catch the theme, don't mention it.)

2. last night, i left the radio on while i was praying and this song came on. i had never heard it before so i went and looked it up. the song is called "whatever You're doing" by santus real. love the words. it's where i'm at. it's not that i've been running from God or anything. for me, it's making that decision to count the cost and follow through even when it's difficult and things don't make much sense.

it's time for healing time to move on
it's time to fix what's been broken too long
time make right what has been wrong
it's time to find my way to where i belong
there's a wave that's crashing over me
all i can do is surrender

whatever You're doing inside of me
it feels like chaos somehow there's peace
it's hard to surrender to what i can't see
but i'm giving in to something heavenly

time for a milestone time to begin again
reevaluate who i really am
am i doing everything to follow Your will
or just climbing aimlessly over these hills
so show me what it is You want from me
i give everything i surrender... to...

time to face up, clean this old house
time to breathe in and let everything out
that i've wanted to say for so many years
time to to release all my held back tears

whatever You're doing inside of me
it feels like chaos but i believe
You're up to something bigger than me
larger than life something heavenly

whatever You're doing inside of me
it feels like chaos but now i can see
this something bigger than me
larger than life something heavenly

Benita Joy