I can't believe it. I am graduating from school in a year and a half. Fear and doubt grip my throat as I enter Junior year of college. It's only been 4 weeks and I am already getting burned out. Graduation requirements, Exams, papers approach me at once.

I want to make a good impression on my intimidating professors. I have two professors this term who are so intimidating, I am actually scared to ask them questions or talk to them. I feel so dumb when I am next to them. They are impressively intelligent and have such a authoritative presence. When a professor like that gives me a good grade, I feel so great about myself and abilities. But, if I fail one of their classes, I feel so depressed.

I keep feeling that I am not on top of everything even though I have been spending several nights on homework. The two classes that stress me out the most is EDU 260 Instructional Strategies and ENG 331 British Literature II. My practicum and student teaching nearly makes me nervous. I wonder if I can make it.

At least, I am relieved to know I am not the only Junior Education major about to pull my hair out. For instructional strategies, I was in a group project and I realized there are others going through the exact same thing.
I guess, this is typical college stress mixed with thoughts of whether I can survive in the real world, maybe going to grad school and if I can find a job after I graduate.

The best thing is to lay it all in God's hands who holds my future and my life. I was venting this to Pastor Orlie, our campus pastor. I had a nice chat with him, he has such a comforting presence and told me not to worry.