Lean That Shoulder
- By Benita Joy
- Published 02/2/2007
Benita Joy is a Malayalee Christian and serves as the Chief Editor for South Asian Connection. She is a woman of faith, gifted in the area of leadership and administration, and has a heart for world missions. Her desire is to live a life that is pure and to serve God's purposes in her generation. Benita is pursuing a double major in English and Psychology at the University of British Columbia. She loves big cities, chai, the internet, roller coasters, international cuisines, music, and hanging out with friends. She is the youngest member of Team SAC, plays guitar with a baby pink pick (Yikes!), and she's not much taller than your average dwarf (don't tell her that).
On Thursday night, God reminded me that innocence is something to be valued.
On Friday morning, God totally infused my spirit with His peace and a sense of calm amidst the windstorm that is my life. Come what may, I’m ready.
On Friday night, what can I say? Awesome. My shoulder leans. There was an altar call that night was for those who felt called to full time ministry. I didn’t go up. But that didn’t stop God from meeting me right where I was—for someone that never so much as tears up, my peepers wouldn’t stop leaking.
I can’t explain much more than that because the experience was not only deep, but forced me to reflect upon thoughts I’ve refused to entertain for a number of reasons.
Much of the weekend was God confirming to me that I was on the right track and to not lose focus because of circumstances. Building God’s kingdom has been, and will continue to be, my sole purpose. I’ve worried too much about my kingdom of late, but I have renewed faith that He is more than able to take care of it—my life, future, career, education, etc. He only asks that I’m faithful.
I am nothing. He is everything.