Crying For No Reason At All
- By Indu Shanmugam
- Published 02/11/2007
Indu Shanmugam is a 20-something, college student from Oregon, USA. She is majoring in English literature and language. She also studied Theology for a short period. She wants to be a teacher. As a literature enthusiast, she enjoys literature of all types and from writers of various backgrounds from the classics, French realists, Christian writings like C.S Lewis and South Asian literature. As for her own writings, "I am still trying to find and develop my own voice." She sees the art of the written word as a way to speak about Christ and explore truth. Before she met Jesus Christ, she has been searching for the meaning of life through experimentation of other religions, philosophies and ideas. At the age of 17, she accepted Christ after a powerful encounter with God through a miracle. God's presence and deep truths in the Bible fuel her creativity. She is involved in church activities and has a love for the church and would like to see every believer grow, become closer to God and live fruitfully. She loves traveling, sipping bubble teas, theatre, music, films and hanging out with friends and has a weakness for cheesecake.
Really, there is nothing bothering me at all. I am not sad or upset at anything or anybody.
My emotions are so alive deep within. I feel things very deeply and sometimes more deeply than the average person. I just wanted to sit alone by myself and cry.
First, I felt like an emotional fool. As minutes pass, it felt like my soul is speaking to God in a strange, twisted way...expressing and pouring my heart to God. I thought about resting my head against Him and like He was cradling me while my emotions start to speak to Him. I really feel like a sentimental idiot but can I resist the comfort and freedom I feel in my spirit while I bare my soul to God.
Just being open and honest with God makes all the difference.