Life is hard to understand. The only thing I can do is leave it up to God. Past hurts are real and not something anyone can easily get over. Just the fact that struggles exist does not make me a weaker Christian or lacking of faith. Some events of my life are beyond understanding.

I had a dream last night. I saw myself as a little girl about four. I am hearing all the noises of family troubles. I remember being scared and troubled because I was too young to understand what was going on. (And some of these things have stayed with me most of my life). Then, I hear a soothing deep voice at a distance. It's a very deep voice of a lullaby. An image of Jesus appears picks me up. Resting on his shoulders, I hear only His voice and everything else disappears. I fall asleep on His shoulder.

Then, I wake up from my sleep. (Still dreaming. Its weird when you dream about sleeping and waking up). When I wake up, I open my eyes feeling very light. I am in a far away mystical place...far away from the troubles of life. I think I am in God's Kingdom.

It was like God was telling me that I do not have to worry about living the same failures. I do not have to live like them if I trust Him wholeheartedly.

Indu Shanmugam