Bible College Drop Out
- By Indu Shanmugam
- Published 02/11/2008
Indu Shanmugam is a 20-something, college student from Oregon, USA. She is majoring in English literature and language. She also studied Theology for a short period. She wants to be a teacher. As a literature enthusiast, she enjoys literature of all types and from writers of various backgrounds from the classics, French realists, Christian writings like C.S Lewis and South Asian literature. As for her own writings, "I am still trying to find and develop my own voice." She sees the art of the written word as a way to speak about Christ and explore truth. Before she met Jesus Christ, she has been searching for the meaning of life through experimentation of other religions, philosophies and ideas. At the age of 17, she accepted Christ after a powerful encounter with God through a miracle. God's presence and deep truths in the Bible fuel her creativity. She is involved in church activities and has a love for the church and would like to see every believer grow, become closer to God and live fruitfully. She loves traveling, sipping bubble teas, theatre, music, films and hanging out with friends and has a weakness for cheesecake.
I had an interesting comversation with a person who asked me "Why don't you want to study Theology more?" I don't want a Theology degree because I feel it hinders me. It has no purpose other than working inside the church world. I would feel confined in a full-time ministry role because I am not made for that. By the way, why should being anointed, called and being an active Christian serving God's kingdom only be limited to clergy or having a formal minister's role?
Technically, I took two years worth of classes just to understand the basics. After that I just dropped out. I do not want to pursue a BA, MA or anything that has to do with theology. I would rather have a so-called "secular" humanities degree. A secular degree does not mean it is less worthwhile to functioning in God's kingdom. In fact, for me I see more possibilities with a secular degree than a Bible College degree. For one thing, I can relate better to the world outside the church walls.
I have no desire to be a pastor's wife or have a full-time minsitry position. I want to be an active Christian in the Kingdom of God. I want to love God, make Him known and serve the needs of hurting people. I want hurting people and those with broken lives to know that there is a God who can heal them just like He has healed me. I desire to fight for social justice and reflect the nature of our God to a broken world. I can do that without being well known or famous.
It's simple as that - Love God and Make Him Known, in our words, action, and attitudes. (Honestly, I haven't got all of it but I try. How many mistakes have I made? But no mistake is past the grace of God.)
I want to be left alone. I hate being persuaded to fit a certain image or mold of a church-person or image of what an ideal leader should be. Why should I talk in 'Christianese' and use big, grandiose theological lingo and terms and allow myself to be something that I am not? I prefer talking about God and life in simple everyday language. I want to be myself - just an ordinary person who experienced the grace of God.