I’ve been given hope to dream

I’ve been given new life to breathe

I can see again clearly beyond the present

I can see distant shores from these seas

For what is to come keeps driving me

These last two years for me have been an interesting time. If I analyze and look at what has been and what was I realize that I’ve been pulled in two different directions.

I would say that I’ve had to question myself and ask what was most important to me at certain times. I’m finally beginning to see that I’m where I’m at for a specific reason. I love worship. I love to write. I breathe music and singing and songwriting and poetry. It’s been a part of me since I was in my early teens. I’m a poet. I also love to write about deep theological discussions, and preach long-winded sermons, and love people at their point of need. I’ve dreamed of doing this since I was a child.

I’m a pastor. These are the two parts of me that have been fighting. One usually beats the other in what I put my time and energy into. But for the first time I’ve finally realized that both can work hand in hand if I just keep focused on what is front of me and keep preparing myself for what could be ahead. It’s like a brick that fell from the sky and hit me on the head. It’s knocked some sense into me. I can actually be all that God has designed me to be. It’s a wonder and a mystery.

Here’s to believing in something that people never saw

Here’s to coming out of hiding and forgetting what people think

Here’s to living in the present but preparing for the future

I’m going to be all that He has created me to be

Ashish Joy