- By Indu Shanmugam
- Published 05/21/2008
Indu Shanmugam is a 20-something, college student from Oregon, USA. She is majoring in English literature and language. She also studied Theology for a short period. She wants to be a teacher. As a literature enthusiast, she enjoys literature of all types and from writers of various backgrounds from the classics, French realists, Christian writings like C.S Lewis and South Asian literature. As for her own writings, "I am still trying to find and develop my own voice." She sees the art of the written word as a way to speak about Christ and explore truth. Before she met Jesus Christ, she has been searching for the meaning of life through experimentation of other religions, philosophies and ideas. At the age of 17, she accepted Christ after a powerful encounter with God through a miracle. God's presence and deep truths in the Bible fuel her creativity. She is involved in church activities and has a love for the church and would like to see every believer grow, become closer to God and live fruitfully. She loves traveling, sipping bubble teas, theatre, music, films and hanging out with friends and has a weakness for cheesecake.
Transition times are not the most enjoyable time of life. I've repeatedly mentioned that I'm raw and honest in my blogs. Why should I pretend to be a highly spiritual type that continues to be oblivious to the realities of life?
Spirituality is simply connection and relationship with God. It is not about putting on a fake mask in front of others. I'm not here to impress others. Whether I'm a 'woman of God' or not is up to our Lord. People have a tendency to look on the outside, but only the Lord and our heavenly father knows what's inside my heart.
I'm not an extraordinary person but only an ordinary, average person that encountered the grace of God. So, why should I pretend to be one?
Now that I have that out of the way. I'm speaking about transitions.
A major transition that is taking place is finishing college. I only have three classes and the rest is internship. I'm excited but yet nervous. I'm starting to get tired of questions like, "What are you going to do with the rest of your life?" or "What is God calling you to do?" or "What is God doing in your life?"
Those questions alone are bad. It's just that when I say, "I don't know" or don't give a satisfying, answer with spiritualized overtones the person gives me a funny look. For heaven's sake, I'm only 24 and am I supposed to know each and every detail. Sometimes I don't like to talk about it.
The reason is because certain people who seem to think they know it all then try to tell me what I should do, what path I should take and why can't I do something else instead. I smile and nod but I'm sure some of you know what that's like.
I'm not killing myself with worries but I have to first think about what's right in front of me -
1, 3 PRAXIS exams for my teaching license.
2, GRE/Grad school application - I'm thinking of getting my masters.
3, Getting ready for my internship next year
And then it's graduation. I'm already pumped about my graduating and my graduation party, which is a year away I may add :) Mom cracks up. My college advisor tells me that I'm just having a case of senorithis. She adds, "It's too early for senorithis." For those who don't know, 'senorithis' is when a senior or last year student of either high school or college is tired of school and can't wait to graduate and get out in to the world.